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Post by ravenspirit on Sept 4, 2005 0:46:26 GMT -5
I don't care about things anymore. I mean, I can still feel, but not much. Like.. I wanna go to the arcade but once I'm there I feel.. neh. I dunno if it's depression or lack of enthusiam but it's not right. I should be hopping up and down when I'm at a carnival, not wishing I was somewhere else. I do get excited about things when I'm sugar high, though. But that doesn't count.. *Sigh* My horse almost died last night and I sat there staring at him trying so hard to feel sad.....
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Post by Ruby on Sept 4, 2005 0:47:57 GMT -5
Have you have any major trajedies in your life? If you don't mind me asking..
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Post by Kakashi on Sept 4, 2005 0:49:39 GMT -5
Hmmm...Poor raven...
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Post by ravenspirit on Sept 4, 2005 0:58:22 GMT -5
Nothing. My life is pretty much perfect. Except.. I don't even care it's perfect..
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Post by Kakashi on Sept 4, 2005 0:58:41 GMT -5
You're depressed.
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Post by ravenspirit on Sept 4, 2005 1:03:31 GMT -5
But I don't wanna be depressed. *Sigh* Oh well. I knew it anyway.
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Post by Kakashi on Sept 4, 2005 1:04:46 GMT -5
Sorry for my bluntness, but..
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Post by Ruby on Sept 4, 2005 1:12:19 GMT -5
Maybe it's the food you eat...or something. I have no clue right now.
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Post by ravenspirit on Sept 4, 2005 1:16:23 GMT -5
Blunt is the best way.
Though, I really need to get this fixed. I don't care if someone broke into my house, killed my family, raped me, stole everything and left.
But I know I'd care if it happened..
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Post by ravenspirit on Sept 4, 2005 1:16:52 GMT -5
..The food I eat..? I eat just about anything I want.. I'm happy with my food.
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Post by Ruby on Sept 4, 2005 1:19:03 GMT -5
Then I've got nothing else, my advise is crap. My knowledge is crap. My sermons are crap. They never help anyone. I hate this.
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Post by ravenspirit on Sept 4, 2005 1:24:24 GMT -5
lol..
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Post by Ruby on Sept 4, 2005 1:26:38 GMT -5
We all have fucking issues here..
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Post by ravenspirit on Sept 4, 2005 1:27:19 GMT -5
Ruby are you.. mad? Upset? Irked?
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Post by Ruby on Sept 4, 2005 1:34:20 GMT -5
I just feel like giving up again. Everything's going wrong. My friend's dying, I'm always trying to be happy and optimistic, but I'm not happy, and I'm just lost.. I try to make everyone else happy with being cheerful or hyper and it never works...There's always people who're depressed for no reason and take it out on other people, and it just nags the crap out of me...I'm lying to my mom who I love and if she finds out my lie she'll send me to boot camp because apparently I have attitude problems, and she'll throw me on the floor again and just hurt me with random objects. And some stupid thing, like Sky thinking I'm ugly, just friggen tops it all off, like he's the only fucking thing that's going wrong in my life...I promised myself I'd always be happy for other people and no one would be able to take my joy away but my promise is dying..
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Post by distantmind on Sept 4, 2005 1:38:00 GMT -5
I wish I could say I understand all of your problems but I don't. We all have problems and we just have to work. You shouldn't try to be happy all the time it just bottles up the grief until it becomes to much to bear. If there is anything I can do to help ruby let me know.
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Post by Ruby on Sept 4, 2005 1:39:48 GMT -5
You're all so nice...I feel so selfish...
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Post by distantmind on Sept 4, 2005 1:40:01 GMT -5
Raven it sounds like you have depression and I have experianced that. Does it feel like everything is pointless and life is a waste?
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Post by distantmind on Sept 4, 2005 1:41:29 GMT -5
Don't think that way Ruby, you're probably the nicest person on this site. At least that I have seen so far. I don't come here that often. Look life gets tough and you are a good person if you keep trying everthing will work out. It seems like the worst stuff happens to the nicest people.
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Post by ravenspirit on Sept 4, 2005 1:42:05 GMT -5
Raven it sounds like you have depression and I have experianced that. Does it feel like everything is pointless and life is a waste? Yep.
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Post by ravenspirit on Sept 4, 2005 1:43:03 GMT -5
You're all so nice...I feel so selfish... You're not selfish.. You're a cool person, and even though how you normally act is apparently a mask, it still mirrors real happiness. If you can only erase the difference between the two..
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Post by Ruby on Sept 4, 2005 1:44:06 GMT -5
You guys are sooo nice. Thank you so, so much.
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Post by distantmind on Sept 4, 2005 1:45:04 GMT -5
Well raven I got through depression the hard way and it sucked. For about 4 years I was teetering on the brink of breaking down and killing myself. It was the worst period of my life. I am not sure what you should do. Possibly go to a doctor and get a prescription drug or something like that. If you don't want to do that search for one thing or person that makes you feel happy or some good emotion and try to keep happy.
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Post by ravenspirit on Sept 4, 2005 1:47:30 GMT -5
Well raven I got through depression the hard way and it sucked. For about 4 years I was teetering on the brink of breaking down and killing myself. It was the worst period of my life. I am not sure what you should do. Possibly go to a doctor and get a prescription drug or something like that. If you don't want to do that search for one thing or person that makes you feel happy or some good emotion and try to keep happy. NEVAH!!! I refuse modern day "medicine." But I have a cupcake.
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Post by Ruby on Sept 4, 2005 1:48:17 GMT -5
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Post by distantmind on Sept 4, 2005 1:48:43 GMT -5
Then try my second piece of advice, is there anything that still intrests you that you find fun?
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Post by distantmind on Sept 4, 2005 1:50:06 GMT -5
What is that a picture of Ruby?
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Post by Ruby on Sept 4, 2005 1:51:09 GMT -5
Me, my brother, and my dog. XD And the reason Sky thinks I'm ugly.
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Post by distantmind on Sept 4, 2005 1:52:58 GMT -5
I think that you look beautiful. How old are you?
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Post by ravenspirit on Sept 4, 2005 1:54:14 GMT -5
Then try my second piece of advice, is there anything that still intrests you that you find fun? Chatting with my online friends, which seem to me are my real friends..
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